Seek Wisdom....enjoy the moments of insanity.

Proverbs 2:1-8
My son, if you receive my words and treasure up my commandments with you, making your ear attentive to wisdom and inclining your heart to understanding; yes, if you call out for insight and raise your voice for understanding, if you seek it like silver and search for it as for hidden treasures, then you will understand the fear of the Lord and find the knowledge of God.

I am in a season of losing things. I recently lost two pair of glasses. My husband and I searched our house, and then I finally broke down and bought myself two new pair of glasses. Well, before I even received the new glasses the other two turned up. It was both humorous and discouraging. We are working so hard to save money, only to be set back by my careless mistakes. Thankfully, I am married to a gracious man who is very understanding of my many faults.

Then again, I lost my cell phone. Another turning over of my house. This time I even went to the library and checked out every book on getting organized. My house is generally somewhat tidy. Being a wife of a pastor who lives in the manse (parsonage), I try to keep my house in stop by friendly condition. Though it is normally youth that stop by, who really don't notice my sloth, I do try my best. This second loss was the end of it. I decided to get my house straight. So far, so good, but for some reason I cannot get to my bedroom. I keep waiting for someone to come rescue my bedroom from the endless laundry that hasn't found it's home. Nonetheless, my new phone came today, so I'm waiting for my old one to turn up any minute now.

Then this morning I read in Proverbs what my search should truly be. The pursuit of insight and wisdom from the Lord should be my insatiable search, and there I will find wisdom, insight and the fear of Lord, which is the greatest treasure of all.

After reading Proverbs 2, pondering my own pursuits of silver, phone, glasses and all, I was humbled by my own wandering heart. I came to the computer to write when I spotted my 18 month old son trying to put away his cereal bowl like his big sisters had done. One can only imagine the sight, floor, chair and child covered in the mess. I stopped, and thought, "Lord what is your insight here?" Only with His grace was I able to praise my sons efforts rather than scorn his mess. Together we put the bowl away and used washcloths to clean up the milk and the Lord gave me the insight to see his effort rather than his failure. The Lord deals with us with such love, I am grateful when He allows me opportunities to love as He does.

Truly, who needs a clean house over a pure heart. With God's grace I can have victory over my grumpy heart! I can see the efforts of my children, and His own love for my babies. May your heart be directed to the kindness that only comes from the Lord. How rich we will be if we seek His face. And when you are tempted to bark at the messes, remember how the Lord deals with the messes in your heart. His grace is able to increase your gentleness.